다시 배우고 있는 난

또 다른 시작이야.

또 다시 혼자가 되는 난...
사랑이라는 거 다시 모르게 됐어.
어떻게 돼야 사랑이지?
마음이 아주 차가워졌어.
다른 사람이 따뜻한 마음을 받을 까 말 까 생각중인데.
너무 어려운 거야....
이젠 믿음이 다 없어버렸나 봐.
처음에 따뜻하게 재워주고 오래되면 무시함만 당할 걸?
아...
난..
진짜 상처를 받았나 봐.

사랑이야...
다시 배우자....

우리 서로 잘 모르구나...

오늘 너랑 얘기하고 잘 모른 거 알게 됐다.

자고 있는 널 보고 

갑자기 불안했다.

네가 어떤 마음으로 이런 얘기해준 거까? 

내가 이기고 싶은 마음이 강한 거 알고 있어. 

미안해, 네가 싫은 거 모르고.

항상 져주는 넌 상관없다 줄 알았는데 

아니네... 

내가 걱정됐다.

너랑 아무거나 같이 해도 즐길 수 있는 자심이 없다. 

내가 하기 무서운 거들 너무 많아.

너랑 같이 못 하주는 게 싫겠나? 

같이 하면 내가 너무 못 해서 싫겠나? 

ㅎㅎ

내가 너를 많이 좋아하구만...

아니면 이런 얘기 들어도 신경안 쓰겠지? 

휴~

내가 못 하는 거도 노력해서 같이 할 까?

내가 희생을 그렇게 못 하구만... 

是时候放下姿态，

单纯的只为了你

而努力尝试吗？

Even if so, i've got nothing to lose right?  

Her Love = His Love (Love Math)

Most of the time in a relationship,
there will always be a side that tends to love more.

HER LOVE is never equal to HIS LOVE.
And for the relationship to last,
the LOVE > will always have to give in more to LOVE <.

I've experienced many ≠ LOVE.
Some lasted for a long while, some lasted for awhile, and some never really lasted.
I'll say that most of the time I'm on the LOVE ≤ side,
BUT when I'm on the LOVE ≥ side,
all I've got was just LOVE.

Sad.

But,
I've finally found = LOVE.
You'll know it when you find it.
We've fell at the same time = hard.



Hey ㄴㅊㄴ ,

I know there are many struggles in front. For this = LOVE to work and prove itself, we will have a long fight. This time, I would really want to win the fight. Like how you've won not just my heart, but change how I've thought too. I really do hope you be the man standing at the end of the road with me.

Yours Sincerely,
ㅇㅊㄴ

I'm good

I'm good. I'm glad to hear that you've move on. I wish you all the best with your current girl. Shower her with all your love and make her part of your family like you've done before. 

I have been waiting for you to move on. Thats why i kept ignoring you. Cos i know i wouldnt go back and i didnt want to make you feel like there's chance. I'm sorry if i sounded cruel but i thought it was the best way. I want to thank you for everything you've done for me and every blog post you have written for me. I read. And i'm thankful. Now, i wish your posts will be all delicated to this new girl of yours. Cos, she deserves it. 

I've moved on. After you, i've been thru a relationship and it didnt work. Broke up. And after, i found a love that was so special. I love this boy of mine so much. But the sad truth is it is gonna be so hard. And now we are apart. We just barely started and now we are separated at different parts of the world. How far can this go? I'm not confident too. But, he's special. Weird~ why am i telling you this? Guess i'm glad for you and i want to tell you that i'm happy too? Anyway, it's my little secret. Keep it to yourself. 

Take care friend. :) 

내 마음은

나. 

너를 아주 좋아해.

점점 많아지고 있어.

안된다고 100번 1000번 N번 했는데

아직도 네 옆으로 향하고 있어.

정말 좋아해.

좋아해도 얘기 못 하고 널 못 잡고 있어.

내가 진짜 마음대로 하면

속상하게 되는 사람은 너야.

그래서 안 돼.

참기 아주 힘들어. 

진짜.

늘 너에게 고맙해.

나를 잘 아니까.

난 이런 마음을 갖고 있는 걸 모르지. :)